I don’t fucking understand how you don’t seem to care about your daughter having a place to live, but your ex husband just has to come up here with no place to go. You are so unbelievably stupid that I hate talking to you. I ducking hate you. All you do is worry about yourself. All you care about is if your struggling 21 year old can do everything you need her to. I could never rely on you. I could never ask you for anything and you expect me to just drop what I am doing to make you happy. Fuck off mother. If you even deserve to be called that. Seriously, you do not even understand the pressure you just put on me. Fuck off.
Not like, drunk or anything. I’m just in the worst mindset I have been in, in so fucking long. I am depressed, not taking care of myself and would rather just sit around all day, rather then be productive, because what is the point? I get a job, get a car, get a home and I still feel like a fucking failure. I am so over life, over trying to be strong, over giving a crap about anything. I am always known for being nice and caring and shit. Well, I am fresh out of all of that. Life, doesn’t reward caring people. Life, pushes you down so hard, that I never want to get up again.
Everything that I say is looked on as negative, but really, I am constantly surrounded by people who are super cynical.
So, why is it that the one time I am in a shit mood, I am annoying, and never happy. Fuck you dude. I am allowed to feel like shit sometimes too. I’m not fucking happy! I am not happy with my life so far, I am not happy with where it is going AT ALL!!! So why the fuck do I have to be all sunshine and daisies constantly? Fuck you.
I always get the shit end of the stick. Vacation my dick, I was the one that didn’t get super drunk, I was the one that didn’t get much sleep. And now! Now I am the one super fucking hungry, but you will not wake the fuck up so we can go have breakfast. Just… Seriously!? You want me happy? How about putting forth some fucking effort to make me happy? Because obviously, nothing is working.