Today, I got up, went to class, and realized that I never bought the program I was instructed to in order to do the work in the class.
I have yet to pick up the book I have to do an essay and presentation about.
I have a midterm on Wednesday that I have yet to fully study for.
I haven’t studied because my job schedules me to may hours and for to many days.
All I do is work, school and sleep it feels like.
I have fun every once in a while, but it is never carefree… I am never carefree anymore.
I get home to find out my best friend and her boyfriend were fighting with my boyfriend, and so they took all of their stuff back into their room.
Probably just ruined my friendship right there, but there isn’t a compromise from anyone so no one wins really.
I feel like no one understands the level of shit going on in my head, and my depression has gotten so bad, that I never feel happy even when I am having fun.
at this point I could care less about my self worth and honestly I am so sick of life.
I went to get my mail from my moms house to find out that because of the car accident Zack and I were in, I may get sued.
My car is still in pieces and it has been for almost a whole year now.
What does it feel like to be happy? I can’t even remember anymore.
Honestly ignoring me is the worst thing you can do to me.